Stone On The Water
Morning Planet Earth,
Isn’t it interesting how a single phone call can shatter your very existence? That happened to me this morning. My Grandmother passed away last night, very suddenly. Sure, she had been in a home because she broke her hip, but doctors said outside of the hip she was very healthy. I guess it still is in that state of not making sense at this point.
Ironically enough, this happens a couple days after the greatest weekend of my life. Now I’m left here at a lost, I still feel good about my weekend, but now I feel guilty, like I should just be feeling absolutely awful. I’m just very confused, and more so, like I said, it’s as if it hasn’t hit me yet.
I guess I also feel guilty in the fact I had her for a long time, she wasn’t the youngest person to ever pass away, she was 89, had a very long life. I guess that’s useless justification. She was strong, and quite hard headed, she lived on her own nearly to the end.
What I feel most guilty about though is the fact I didn’t go see her as often as I would of liked in the hospital, always pushing it off, and now, well I guess I can’t do that anymore.
It’s this really odd place of knowing all you have left is your parents, I mean, they don’t have someone to go to for advice anymore. Sure, they still have friends and siblings, but it’s not the same.
So I leave this rather sombre post with the fact that I miss you Gram, I’ll always love you, and you’ll always be in my heart. You had more of an impact on this young man then you could ever know. Thank you for everything you did for me.
EMC2
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