July! July!

Evening Planet Earth,

It’s been months since our last encounter of the such. I suppose I’ve had a generally pleasant existance and had nothing to complain about, until now I suppose.

I’ve been seeing this girl that until this moment I thought was absolutely awesome. I mean, she was funny, sexy, intelligent, and the best of all, she had just a really original personality.

We both agreed to be in an open relationship, since that is what I wanted personally, and that is what I got. The problem is, tonight she began talking about this other guy she’s also seeing, and the way she feels about him, and it’s become quite apparant to me in my mind that I’m just the replacement. This has turned me so very off from the relationship that I don’t want to be in it anymore.

Here’s the bigger problem, she seems to really have become attached, saying she’s missed me and the shit. So this makes it very difficult on my behalf to just dump her now, especially since I told her she could tell me whatever was bothering her, and even told her I don’t mind about hearing her with another guy.

I’m not sure where this will lead, stay in tune.

-EMC

If We’re all alone, Aren’t We In This Together.

Early Morning Planet Earth,

Here I sit, 2:24 a.m. establishing a new dawn. I come back here often enough, proclaiming the new life discovery I’ve made, and it’ll change who I am. Well, I’m glad to say this night is officially the dawn of a new era.

After a night of Christmas Partying I was able to get rid of all my hang ups about women, I mean, all the hate and incomprehension of women is gone. Tonight opened up my eyes. Now the issue is this, having figured out women gives me this bad taste in my mouth, and makes me feel very unnattracted towards them.

I never understood really why my past relationship failed, and everyonce in a while I’d wonder if she misses me. After tonight I understand it all, we were young, what were we doing being so serious. The second part to that question is, yes, she does miss me. She may not particularly show it, or she may not even admit it, however I know in her deepest heart of hearts, she does.

It’s really this simple, no one ever gets up their first love, it’s that simple. No one will ever have a love as pure as that. There is no caution, there is no pride, all there is really dumb innocent love. Love that doesn’t know any better, it doesn’t have any road signs, so you improvise.

After losing that first love, and moving on, you will always be more cautious and never love, or be wanted like you were in that first relationship.

So I suppose I leave you in these parting words Planet Earth:

At all, and by any means necesary, make your first love work out. You will never experience anything like that ever again.

Insincerely yours,

Edwin McClain.

Hard Left

Evening Planet Earth,

Something rather life altering dawned on me today. Not completely life altering, but enough to have a memorable impact. As I was riding on the bus, I noticed this couple come on the bus. The girl was rather cute, the guy was rather unnattractive with an extremely bad case of achne. However, that didn’t stop her from loving him with all her heart, and it was blissfully apparant.

It had been a while since I saw such innocent young love. The last time I honestly saw it was my last relationship, and of course, as expected, that brought back alot of memories, feelings, and emotions. It also brought something else, something unexpected. I can’t describe the other feeling it brought, some may describe it as hope, however it felt more powerful than that. I mean, it felt like assurance, I’m not sure of what, perhaps of brighter days.

For that very short period of time this morning, I was inlove again. All those monumentest feelings were back again, and I wasn’t feeling it for anyone in particular, it was more like I was in love with an idea.

I can’t quite describe the whole event very well, mostly because I’m still trying to figure out what happened. I’d usually be repulsed by such a thing, but maybe the difference here was that they were legitimately in love. I’m not sure.

So I leave you with this thought planet earth:

Maybe someday you’ll wake up, and remember that love is the exact same thing as hope.

Insincerely yours,

Edwin McClain.

Your Visits Are Getting Shorter.

Morning Planet Earth,

Seems like my distaste and dislike for women has returned after a recent event. I mean, when a girl generally accepts to go on a date with you, you’d think they generally mean it. But again, they are never honest.

Thank god I’ve found Bella.

Insincerely Yours,

Edwin McClain

This I love

Morning Planet Earth,

I’m back, alive and well. I apologize about my prolonged absence, I was in the middle of a move, and then wordpress wasn’t working for me. Technical problems, got to hate them.

So, It’s been a couple of months since my last post, and since then, I can now officially say I am over the aforementioned ex. I have entirely kicked her out of my life, as well as her friends. I now have absolutely no connection to her, and it’s a great feeling.

The most painful thing about it all though is the fact that I now nothing her. I feel nothing absolutely nothing for her. I guess it means I can finally move on. There is always someone more perfect for you out there than the last person you dated.

Anyways Planet Earth, I need to get going to work, be ready for more updates more often.

Sincerely yours,

Edwin McClain

Cancer For The Cure

Evening Planet Earth,

Where have I been? I wish I knew. I mean, I’ve been trying to live in this abysmal life and surviving, I wake up every morning barely knowing where I am, nor am I concerned about where I am. So I mean, plenty has happened since our last encounter, let me sum up a few things that have occured over the last 2 months:

• The Earth was doomed to the apocolypse because of the LHC (Big surprise, here we still are.)
• We now know who is running along with the presidential hopefuls.
• 21,491,520 People have breathed air for the first time, and 9,293,340 have breathed their last breath.
• Russia Invaded Georgia, only to pull out.

Only a few certain events. Yet all I can do is think about my ex. I mean, I thought I was over her, but when she started this new guy, the world felt like it crashed. I suppose there’s no other way to explain it.

I suppose I’ll live to see another day.

Sincerely yours,

Edwin McClain

Anywhere I Lay My Head

Evening Planet Earth,

It’s been a couple of weeks, what has happened since you ask? well, nothing that much.

My lady and I have headed for splits ville. You know, the oddest thing I’ve learnt is the crushing feeling when you see that person that you once cared for in the arms of another. I’m still trying to get a hold and grasp of human emotions, as all us humans should, but we just keep getting shaked off by them, to never really hold a grasp.

I think I need to live by the following words:

“If you choose to stay friends with an ex lover, it’s just an example of massochism.”

I don’t know if it’s possible at all to stay friends with an ex.

Signed,

Edwin McClain

The Sound Of Silence

evening planet earth,

What is perhaps the most unoriginal thing you can think of a female doing?

Tattoo is at the top of the page for sure however,

Belly Button Piercing is 2nd on that list.

Perhaps my reason are just my misunderstanding of human nature, but as we’ve already established, I have many of those. I just don’t understand why a woman feels the need to stick steel through their bellybuttons. It just really brings negative energy to their boxes.

So for once planet earth, I’m pleading for all of you, male/female to contact me, and let me know why girls will do such a thing.

Ashamed

Afternoon planet earth,

Celebrating a friend of mines birthday yesterday, I ended up being dragged to a strip club. I had never been, and it honestly confirmed what I always thought of a place like that: Seedy dancing prostitutes (cause let’s face it, when they say “200$ for the full service package, 100$ for a blowjob” it goes beyond the walls of stripping.) which don’t really dance, just kind of sway their hips around a pole, with a bunch of perverted guys who could never get the girls they see on stage drool over the aforementioned prostitutes.

I was so bored, and turned off by all the events around me, that I actually began pondering how much the electrical bill was. So I sat there sipping my beer, and then it really hit me, what are these girls honestly doing? how did they get here? what did they do in life to deserve such a destiny?

They are risking their lives with diseases, and exploiting themselves to a completely degrading level. So what would make someone do something like this, I’m sure the buck is enticing, but their financial situation must be ridiculous for them to consider it.

So, all of this was unravelling in my mind, and 1 of my friends friend decided to pay 1 of the strippers (prostitutes) for the full service package (of course, he had to choose the 1 that most resembled my girlfriend.) and when he came out 20 minutes later, he made alluded to the fact that he wasn’t wearing a condom. Firstly, even with a condom, I’d never do that, even if I was single, I don’t even want to imagine the amount of other men that have stuck their penises into this lovely workers nether regions. But the fact he would risk himself, and she would risk herself like this is just unacceptable.

So I suppose I leave you with this thought today planet earth,

Stay away from strip joints, whether your male or female. Women, please stop degrading yourself like this, you all deserve so much better than this.

Sincerely yours,

Edwin McClain

Don’t Look Back In Anger

Afternoon Planet Earth

I’m making up for a week without updates.

I’ve been floating around in my sea of memories and thoughts. Trying to piece life together, and figure if there is indeed anything more to this experience than meets the eye. While doing so, as per usual, something became quite apparant.

Everyone says they love somebody, but not many of them honestly mean it. I suppose most of them confuse love with safety and security. I don’t believe in the word love as I’ve stated previously on this blog, I think it’s a shallow characterisation of an unknown, but we do that with all things relative to life. Is there any real distinction between happiness and sadness? Both can cause you to cry. It’s a human need to characterise what would seem like different emotions, when really, it’s all the same. Love is hatred, Hatred is happiness and hapiness is sadness.

To get back on point though, I’ve realized that, now more than ever, the word loves means nothing. It’s not how you say it, it’s how you show it through your actions. You can say the word a million times, and it’s meaningless. I think we should all take a cue out of that book, and we should stop say it, and walk the walk.

Sincerely yours,

Edwin McClain.